'When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be'. - Lao Tzu
It's never too late to start healthier habits, not just for the body, but for the Soul. You're here, in this body, this life, with it's beautiful possibilities, just this once. Love, nurture and be nice to yourself, it's hard to be happy when someone's being mean to you all the time and it's especially sad when it's yourself! Don't waste a minute more on negative emotions and limiting beliefs. Fight for your happiness!
You can choose a new way of being, any time you want! Every rut has a way out and series of habits a turn around switch, we just need to find the right kind of light, the tools that work for us & the trigger that speaks our language. Make an effort to find them, explore. Believe there's more than you are experiencing. You & the time you have here, are worth it.